I promise that I will run everyday this summer
I promise that I won't eat unless I have to
I promise that if I binge I'll run twice as far the next day
I promise that if I break any of these, I will admit to it in the comment section below.
If you have any promises you want to keep, write them in the comment, and write when you break them.
We can all lose weight if we support each other.
Yesterday I didn't go for a run and I ate way too much.
ReplyDeleteI probably won't go for a run today.
I told myself I was going to run, tan, get healthy and work on my eating disorder. I have bulimia. You know what happened? I was working on cheer stuff, getting ready for next season. Doing flips on the trampoline and I BROKE MY ANKLE. I had to have surgery, a plate was inserted and what not. It was kind of a big deal. I was looking forward to going back to school in August looking fantastic. No. I'll be going back to school looking like a big, fat, blob. :'( I'm depressed.
ReplyDeletei really need to do this, so i promise to get my shit together.
ReplyDeleteI promise to eat only if I absolutely must.
ReplyDeleteI promise to do at least one hour of cardio a day.
I promise to avoid ALL processed foods.
Hey!! Just randomly searching anorexia blogs... cause Im such a sad ass thats what I do when I have other shit to do. :| Im pathetic.... Anyway I read a whole tonne of your posts.... Please stop. Please get help. LIKE SERIOUSLY, PLEASE.... It is so painful to read the things that girls just like you are thinking. About how anorexia is a good thing. Just trust me... its not..... Sweetie. You have no idea what you are getting yourself into.. Holy crap if I could weigh as much as you do and be happy with myself. Oh my goodness I would be so happy. Gahhh it makes me so sick to read these things, and realise I was once there. After 7 years with anorexia (bingeing type) and Body Dysmorphic Disorder, depression, suicide attempts, um lets see, like 4 times.... :| self harm, please sweetie I AM FUCKING BEGGING YOU!!!!!!! I have been 83lbs and loved yet hated my body at the same time... I was so proud to weigh that little. But at the same time I still saw fat. My thighs, my face, my arms, I saw love handles. Like dude, don't get me fucking started.... You think that it'll be just 2 more lbs, just 5, just 10. NO. It doesn't stop there trust me.... And just wait till you start having panic attack because you ate. Crying because someone put food in front of you. Like literally sobbing. Taking a whole bunch of pills till your stomach hurts because you just want to die and then realising you don't actually want to. Wanting to scream and pull your hair out. Turning the music up so loud and pressing your headphones into your ears, just to drown out the fucking horrible voices in your head telling your you're a FAILURE.. A LOSER, DISGUSTING, FLABBY, WORTHLESS, PATHETIC, HIDEOUS, HORRIBLE. When you only weigh 90lbs. Its no way to live...... I weigh 97lbs now and yet still I have a list of food I can't eat without wanting to throw up or take laxatives. Foods that make me feel physically ill because I can't bear the thought of them inside me. The pain you are causing yourself, and family and people that care about you... My boyfriend holds me as I have panic attacks, my heart racing, breathing deep, crying silently, because I'm horrified at what I've just eaten. Running at 2am, 3am in the morning, not sleeping, because what if the fat doesn't burn in your body when your'e sleeping and then you're just getting fatter???? That though horrified me... Ever gone 4 days without sleeping, rocking back and forth in your bed because you're afraid that you will get fat in your sleep? Counting licking your flavored lipgloss as "eating" because it has no calories???
ReplyDeleteYou will end up clawing at your throat with your fingers, toothbrush, pens, what ever it takes and making it bleed, tears streaming down your face, hitting your hands on the toilet seat and bruising them because you can't make it come back up and hating yourself and having another panic attack. The voices in your head willl just get worse and drive you completely insane. I am telling you stop, before it totally controls your life. You won't be able to go to university and work. I can't. Fucking food is constantly on my mind. I am praying for recovery... I am trying to eat 3 healthy meals a day consistently for a month, to gain 5kilos and reach 100lbs. Because if I don't, my amazing boyfriend I plan to marry when I finish my degree will not stick around and watch me die a slow, painful, dehabilitating suicide. Just wait until your "friends" become awkward around you because they don't know what to think. And then you hear the whispers. Even after a while, people will forget about you, and no one will care. Your parents won't even say anything. You will become invisible, nothing, trapped in the walls of your mind and holy mothtthherrr if I could get out of my own head..... one can only wish... Please, please please please please stop and get help. I'm praying for you hun <3 In God's eyes, you are beautiful because you were made as his creation. Perfect, flawless, sinless, blameless, and it hurts him to see his incredibly unique and wonderful creation suffer in sick silence. You are more precious than you can imagine. You have touched me, and I live all the way across the world in Australia in a different time zone. No one deserves to live like this <3 <3 <3 <3 Keeping you in my thoughts Louise xoxoxox
ReplyDelete* 110lbs sorry is my goal. At least. If Mila Kunis can be my height and weigh 114lbs, and be like super hot, so can I.
ReplyDeleteI PROMISE TO BEAT MY EATING DISORDER.
I PROMISE TO LIVE MY LIFE.
I PROMISE TO NOT LET IT CONSUME OR CONTROL ME.
I PROMISE TO EAT.
I PROMISE NOT TO RESTRICT OR PURGE.
I PROMISE TO NEVER EVER AGAIN HAVE TO HAVE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS.
I PROMISE TO BE HEALTHY AND DO ALL I CAN TO HELP OTHERS STAY HEALTHY.
Keep your mind clear, and be alert. Your opponent the devil is prowling around like a roaring lion as he looks for someone to devour. Be firm in faith and resist him, knowing that other believers throughout the world are going through the same kind of suffering - 1 Peter 5:8-9
You aren't alone, and your thoughts that are attacking you are just the devil. He doesn't want you to be happy. Think positive, smile :) and ignore the evil thoughts in your mind :)
xoxo
i feel like im disguting.. like i cant eat. like i shouldn't be aloud to eat.. i feel like i shouldn't go in public. or i shouldnt wear shorts. i weigh 165 pounds... it's terrible. i feel like a big peice of fat. i feel like if i don't eat... i will be happy. i will be skinny, i will have the body that i want. i just want to be skinny. that's all i have ever wanted. i feel like if i dont nobody will want me.. if i like a boy and they dont like me, i knows its because of my weight. i hate summer, the shorts, the tank tops the swim suits. i hate it, i just wish that i could be happy. i have ate today.. but like the other days, it's been once... but too much!
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DeleteIt hurts me to read the posts of a person who believes their illness to be a virtue, because anorexia is a horrible, horrible thing. I am not lying. I am not trying to hurt you.
ReplyDeleteI know that you probably don't believe me, but beating your anorexia is 'being good'.
I agree with you, everyone is beautiful, but sadly everyone won't believe it!
DeleteI want to tell you all that you are beautiful no matter what size... beauty has no weight limit, ok?
ReplyDeletea guy just asked me out, i MUST be thin!!!
ReplyDeleteHoney if he asked you out that must mean he likes you the way you are.
DeleteI'm in recovery from anorexia. I am now at a healthy weight but this disorder will be with me for the rest of my life. My hair continues to fall out even though I am healthy again. My eyesight has completely deteriorated; I once had pretty much perfect vision- as much as is humanly possible anyway-now kids in school laugh at me when I forget my glasses and have to stand right in front of the board to read it. Maths problems I would have once been able to do without much trouble are now impossible for me-starving yourself affects the brain; I don't know how it happens. I was very, very thin but I only see this now. When you gain weight, you begin to see yourself more like you actually are. Again, I don't know exactly what causes this but there is some sort of scientific reasoning behind it. I wish I could go back. If I could, I would go to a doctor. I was never overweight; I was always skinny. A doctor would gave been able to reassure me. If, and this probably isn't the case, you are unhealthy, a doctor can go you to become healthy-without losing your mind. I understand what it feels like: the insecurity, the self-loathing, the horror of looking in the mirror. But I need you to know: the times I am happiest are when I am a healthy weight. One more thing (and I don't intend to offend anybody here, or put any body shape down) but guys find thigh gaps disgusting. We are not meant to have them; for a time I thought thigh gaps were normal-until I was greeted with shock and revulsion when I mentioned this to others. It's half two in the morning here and I was going to go to sleep. But I had to tell you all what I have learned, much to my regret, about anorexia when I read what is written here.
ReplyDeleteYou are loved. Remember that. Please. God, I wish you could believe me. I'm crying right now. There is so much ahead of you. You don't need to do this. Please believe me. Please go to a doctor, find out if you really are unhealthy and, if you are, become healthy in a way that won't ruin your life.
guys, I need help. Please, I'm usually so good at my "diet" I could go days without eating, I always keep myself busy, and I am always non-stop exercising.... but when I get in a binge mood... I cannot stop. It's my fourth day binging tomorrow, and I feel so bad about myself. I'm so fat, I could be mistaken for a whale. at these times I feel like I'm not even anorexic. That my will-power is so weak. When my binges with food start, so does my binges with laxatives. I need something motivational or even just plain old harsh, please? Get me back on the track to losing, please... xoxo
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ReplyDeleteI'm 13 and am not going to eat for a while
ReplyDeleteyou're an idiot if you're 13 and not going to eat. Enjoy when you're parents notice and start sending you to therapy and put you on meds.
Deletehi:)
ReplyDeletei'm lisa, from germany.
is here anybody i can talk to? ive an ed for 4 years and i'd like to write with sb about anorexia to motivate each other. so i'm looking for a twin <3
please help me <3
Hey, my names nathasha and i am 13.
ReplyDeletei feel like a fat peice of nothing.
why do i have to live like this? i came to this site for help. my brain is telling me not to eat but something inside me is telling me to eat.
I know its ok not to be ok but living like this, seriously its not a choice.
i hate my self! So i chat to you from london, asking for help. so, please may someone help me?
Hey Natasha :)
DeleteFirst of all, you're not fat, everyone is beautiful :) Secondly, don't go on stupid diets, they won't work, you will feel miserable, don't listen to the voices inside your head because they're wrong. U are 13 which means you're still developing and therefore you shouldn't just stop eating. You could maybe go to the doctors and see if you really need to loose weight (just for your health), you could also talk to someone about this, maybe your parents or the school counselor?
If you want to improve your health you could eat more fruits and vegetables, less candies, maybe join some sport team? Just don't ruin your life by developing an ED. If you think that's gonna happen, find help before it's too late.
I hope I've helped you :)
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ReplyDeleteIve just found this after searching about a year. i need help. my "friends" will flip out if they know im still like this. please help me an give advice. im not really new to anorexia but i just haven't had the change to know all out what needs to be done an what the rules are. cuz of home stuff, i have a hard time, like how we ALL eat dinner together. so here are my promises:
ReplyDeletei promise i will only eat 500 calories or less each day. prefer 300.
i promise i will run 2 hours a day.
i promise i will keep a smile on an master the ability to lie.
i promise i will lose AT LEAST 30 pounds by the time school comes.
i promise to run 2 extra hours if i eat the full 500 calories.
i promise to puke at least half of what i eat at dinner, if i even eat dinner.
i promise i will confess if i brake these promises.
thank you for helping me, does this mean we are all like sister now?
Confession: i broke the rules and promises.
ReplyDeletei ate like a pig last night. i puked half of it but i wasn't aloud to go on a run. today, i ate like pig too, i wasn't able to run because i am grounded, i got in BIG trouble an cant go anywhere.
i feel so fat! i look like a pregnant cow!
Ok so I've never been on a blog before so I'm pretty new to this. I found this blog and I hoped someone could give me advise?? I've been trying to loose weight but I've come to a wall, I lost a stone and a half last year but colleges and friends noticed and started getting all uptight about it.. It's ok for them they loose 2 pounds and praise each other but as soon as I join the conversation the just say ' what u being stupid for!?' It puts me down.. I'm proud of my self when I loose weight yet know one else is. So this wall I've come too.. I haven't been able to shed a pound for months and I hardly eat anything and I've cut out all carbs and sweets and fizzes drinks and fast food! I dont know what else to do, I need to loose itleast another half a stone over the next few months before I loose the will! I'm currently 5ft 2 and 8 motherfucking stone! Worst part is my stomache bloats to the size of a 5 month pregnant person whenever I touch food which puts me off it more, but then I start binging at night time eating like cheese sandwhiches or a bag of chocolate and then sleeping it off without exercise !! Someone help! :( x
ReplyDeleteI'm new at this. I tried it for two weeks last month and I completely gave in. My friends knew, and everything. It's summer now and I want to be able to go out with my friends and not cover my stomach every two seconds. I want to be beautiful. My family always talks about how beautiful my cousins are, but they don't talk about me. I'm doing this because I want them to say," she looks beautiful and skinny, doesn't she." I want to be asked," have you lost weight." So I need all of you to help me, please. I got on another Ana site, and e-mailed the women of the site, but she never answered me. No one is supporting me trough this, and I need support. So, please I am begging, help me be beautiful.
ReplyDeleteWhat did you try? How much do you want to lose?
DeleteI'm new at this. I tried it for two weeks last month and I completely gave in. My friends knew, and everything. It's summer now and I want to be able to go out with my friends and not cover my stomach every two seconds. I want to be beautiful. My family always talks about how beautiful my cousins are, but they don't talk about me. I'm doing this because I want them to say," she looks beautiful and skinny, doesn't she." I want to be asked," have you lost weight." So I need all of you to help me, please. I got on another Ana site, and e-mailed the women of the site, but she never answered me. No one is supporting me trough this, and I need support. So, please I am begging, help me be beautiful.
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